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I'm in tatters. She's left me. This is madness. How can suddenly, everything be righter than rain could ever be and then, you're told that she didn't even have proper feelings for me and things just got carried away.
She left this morning.
I am devastated. I can't believe it. It's like this isn't even happening. It's a figment of my own lonely, paranoid mind. Or at least, it should be...
This is ridiculous.
I can't...I can't put into words how exactly I feel but all I know is that I want to say it because if I don't, something bad will happen.
Something worse will happen...if that's possible.

I loved her. I loved her more than anything. I was content and I was looking forward to the wedding. And now?
Nothing.
Nothing is what is now.
Nothing.
I am forgotten and broken, like a toy that went past it's prime of need.

It's times like these that I wish I had friends.